Day 11: Me, my what-ifs, and I

To be honest, this topic is hard. Not because I can’t think of something I always think of “what if…” about, but because I have so much what-ifs I can’t even choose one. Born as someone who (used to) strive for ideal life, there are so many things I wish I would have fixed in the past and would have gotten one right now, or nearly in the future.

Chapter 1: The Past

I wish I would have done my best in many aspects. What if I didn’t make reckless decisions? And didn’t do blunders? What if I didn’t invest my energy and efforts in wrong things? What if I didn’t overthink too much? What if I was an attractive, cheerful kind of person? What if I had my first job in the other place, would I be able to achieve my dream? What if I wasn’t born as who I am right now, would I be happy?

Chapter 2: The Future

What if I could make a better life for myself in the future (I doubted before I typed this, because ‘future’ sounds so vague in this current situation)…

…and what if I couldn’t?

Chapter 3: The Present

Ah, had these few thoughts were enough to make my head hurts.

So let me just think about,

what if

I live to the fullest in the present

and stop

thinking about my what-ifs?